I recently returned from being immersed in a student ministry culture I love! It was an amazing weekend of ministry – I will never forget it.
I am stricken by how full…and how I empty….I feel today.
Full: Living into my calling. Loving my friends. Equipping youth workers. Worshipping fully.
Empty: Exhausted from the conference and this stage in my life. Afraid of the ‘what could be’ in my future. Knowing my calling but having no way to express it right now.
As I lamented these things, meditated on the functional and dysfunctional parts of me, and called out to my Creator – I caught myself praying for a job. “God, I need a job. I need a ministry. I need some students.”
And then the wonder of that still small voice….”You don’t need a job, Darren – you need Jesus.” That is all.
On days where your mind and heart are filled with ‘needs’, – don’t forget the greatest need of us all…..
Everyone's Called to Youth Ministry 
I needed this today as I am feeling the same way. I find myself praying for that right/perfect ministry job while God is right next to me telling me he’s got it all under control, he has a plan. But I’m just not that patient and yet he keeps telling me be still child.
i hear you. we place a premium tying our ‘identity’ to our ‘industry’ (erikson development theory stages) and it really is a powerful tie. having shifted my careers over the years into and out of various roles in youth ministry it is tough to not have an outlet.
hang in there for that place that says ‘yes’ to your gifts and talents. in the mean time, imagine creating other works of service that can help build you skill sets and experiences. might be some non-profit work, family counseling, hospice volunteer care, probate officer, etc.
blessings on this journey, shalom, -g
You da man, Darren. I totally know how you feel.
Loved your post. I have felt tired, stressed and even discouraged lately. Then John 3:30 comes flying at me, captures my heart and leaves me sitting in my truck outside the office asking for more Jesus… Best worship i’ve had in weeks. Praying for you.
Great post Darren! Praying for you.
Darren, get out of my head. I got hit by the same Jesus 2×4 this weekend. I am praying for you brother.
Exactly…