I’m introducing a new feature to my blog. Fat Tuesday.
It’s because I’m fat.
Last summer I wrote an article for a new magazine called Unfiltered. The magazine is a view of the youth ministry life outside the church walls. My article (on the struggle to lose weight) garnered some attention….and I was offended. I know, right? Most authors love it when their musings get noticed. But I was a little mad.
I have written LOTS of stuff on youth ministry. I’m passionate about it. I’m pretty good at it. And I love investing in the youth ministry community! So I was a little trepidatious when the editors asked me to write something on weight struggles. It took some time to get something on the page, so finally I just threw in the towel and stopped trying to write a ‘good’ article…and I just wrote.
With this article, I was writing about something I was NOT passionate about. I was writing about something I hate about myself. I was writing about something I have failed at for 40 years…and this wasn’t a success story from which anyone could really benefit. My publisher and editor were reveling My youth ministry colleagues were complimenting. Even my wife quietly assured me that it was the best thing I’d ever written. And I was heart-broken. I wanted my most revered writing to be about youth ministry, not my huge and clearly visible failure.
That being said, the article forced me to face some areas of my life that are not shiny and pretty and perfect. And the article became cathartic for me…for a while. I began to rewire some of my thinking. I started losing some weight. I began a journey to wholeness. I thought it was a game changer. I was wrong.
It was a strong first half (or whatever those sports analogies are for starting out strong…I’m not really a sports guy.) But the game is still being played.
And as I was evaluating my blog, I realized that I do not write ministry stuff here because I’m an expert or successful. I write about it because I’m still in the fight.
And so I introduce to you Fat Tuesday — not because I am an expert. But because I’m still fighting. You’ll find some of my personal journey here each Tuesday. Sometimes pithy. Sometimes raw. Always authentic – because when we hide our weaknesses, we lose the game.
9 thoughts on “Fat Tuesday”
Bring it on Darren. It’s good to let others in on our personal (and less cool) side. I know I tend to only share about what I feel I have under control. Doesn’t leave much room for us to show off what God’s still working on in us though. Glad to read a bit of your story today!
Great post Darren! As Lecrae would say your are Trill…check it out on the Urban Dictionary as being true to oneself and real with all…True + Real = TRILL. In the journey with you and glad to call you friend that we can be trill with each other!
I’m here…you know I’ve been on your shoulder for years and years and your biggest fan. I’m a foot soldier in the same battle. I know you. You know me. I’m looking forward to your weekly thoughts..
I know, Chris!~ You’re an inspiration!
Please keep on writing and remain Trill (as Ron so perfectly put it). We are all in this fight together.
Darren, I am Chris Kaminski Gochee’s sister, the Sister, Sister Joanne Kaminski, a Franciscan Felician Sister. I know what my sister went through and I am proud of her. Please be assured of my prayers for you. I will request from the Lord courage and strength for you, strong Faith and deep Trust. One day at a time…
I’m so excited to meet Chris’s sister, the Sister!!! And I sincerely thank you for your prayers!
Proud of you Darren! I myself struggle with my weight and last year I lost 20 pounds! Unfortunately, I’ve put 10 of those back on again, and I’m right there with you. Trying to get rid of the weight, but struggle to be disciplined about. Hence the epic the salad I made at our lunch yesterday! Love you buddy and thank you for being such an encouragement to me!
I’m always down for a salad that boasts more calories than a double cheeseburger! :) Love ya, friend!