Will There Ever Be Happy Days Again?

After making some pretty staunch demands of God – and then realizing what a doofus I am for thinking I can treat God like customer service, I had this thought.

“God, will there every be happy days again.”

I can’t remember a recent day not cloaked in a blanket of stress.  I’m not talking about those cheap comforters you get from Wal-Mart.  I’m talking about those heavy, home-made blankets your grandma made using corduroy and old blue jeans and lined with flannel.

Most days, even my pores ooze tension – leaching the poison of  anger and discontentment into my household.  Even Pro-Active ain’t the answer for this acne.

Laughter, though not elusive, has been hollow – void of peace and lacking authentic joy.

I walk this pathetic path again – I have been here before, recently.  Not in a deja vu kind of way — but literally, like I can see my shoe prints from just a while back.  It’s that road where I wonder if obedience to God has a pay-off beyond the sacrifice of my family and finances.  I question whether walking this road has made a significant difference anywhere in this world beyond my own mind.  And I start demanding to speak with a supervisor.

Truth is:  days might not ever be happy again.  Will I continue to trust?  Stress may never abate.  Will I believe?  It might not all ‘work out fine’ like I keep hearing from everyone who says they have walked this similar path.  Will I lean on what I know – not how I feel?

Because here is what I know:

Great is His faithfulness – His mercies are new each morning.   Lamentation 3.23

Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.  Matthew 11.29-30

The name of the LORD is a strong fortress; the godly run to him and are safe.  Proverbs 18.10

The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.  Deuteronomy 31.8

These things I KNOW about God.  Regardless of my circumstance, my weaknesses….regardless of me –  He is unwavering.

When we are faithless, He is faithful – for He cannot disown Himself.  2 Timothy 2.13

When you are wondering of there is such a thing as O Happy Day, what truth do you lean on?

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Author: Darren Sutton

I'm a dad - husband - veteran youth pastor. I'm trying to follow God's call on my life, despite my own shortcomings & because of His unfailing love.

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